Curveballs

Being a mom is hard work. It's been a few months since I have posted because it's been hard to find the right words. As a family we have been through a lot. Last time I posted I spoke of our puppy problems and my husbands new job. I would give anything in the world to go back to that week and the stress that I was dealing with compared to what came after. On July 15 my father-in-law passed away unexpectedly. My son was only 2 months old. My husband and I had just turned 25. We were so close to him. Literally living on the other end of the street from each other, spending around 3-4 days at his house. He was a man of character that you just don't find very often. He was strong in his values, kind in his words, growing leaps and bounds in his faith, and loved his family more than anything in the world. I feel honored to have known him for the 3 years that I did and to have become as close to him as I did. It has been hard though. Neither of us were prepared to lose a parent or a best friend. We also had the stress of raising a baby through all of the pain. Never did I have a chance where I could just say forget the world and sleep for days to try to 'escape' reality. I had a baby to attend to who didn't understand anything about the world. I'm incredibly thankful that he didn't have to feel such sadness and pain, but I'm incredibly sad that he will never know his Grandpa personally. His legacy shall live on in our household and our children will know as much about him as we can share, but I wish that we all had the next 20 years like we had planned.

I'm hoping that passing this tough topic and something that I felt like I had to deal with will help me be able to post about other more light hearted things in the future.